Tuesday, October 14, 2014

What is our life reflecting?

Sometimes I feel like this is a place to confess instead of a blog. When I write, I write what weighs on my heart. I use examples of what goes on around me in my daily life or beautiful things that God has set before me that I have often ignored.  This one is a doozy and I am ashamed, but feel like it is something I do without even realizing. This time it was so blatant, I was convicted instantly. For my friends who do not know...my blog instantly goes on my church website. I truly am an open book and I want my weaknesses to be used however God sees fit. So here goes....

Peyton and I were at Verizon this weekend. We had been arguing over a stupid phone and I was super irritated. We had gone through loop after loop to try and get the situation fixed, but ran into several bumps in the road. I was talking to the man and I said "she doesn't need a "_______" 5C, she can settle for whatever she can get. (You can fill in the blank). No more than 1 minute later, I said "I forgot....someone at my church has one for sale." Boom!!! Instant conviction. I had instantly labeled Christians in two sentences. So many people reject Christianity because what they see from a Christian is no different than what they see from the world. I was that Christian. Oh how I wished I would have turned around and told him how truly sorry I was for my "example". But I didn't....I just walked out and whispered "Lord, please forgive me."  

We are stamped with a precious label "Child of God". Even if someone can't physically see our stamp, they should be able to tell by our actions. How often have I hid my stamp? How often have I brought shame to my Savior's Name? We are called to be different, to be Holy. My actions were anything but. We represent the Most Holy King every second. How are we representing Him? 

I could lie and say this is my first time...but it's not. So I am asking prayer to help remove the sin of profanity. But please understand it's not just the words we say...it's our actions. When we leave church and go out to eat...how do we treat our waitresses or waiters? When someone needs help, do we help with a cheerful heart or wait for someone else to do what we should do? There are so many ways our life should bring glory to God. Let's remember this as we live our lives. We are representing Him! 

Proverbs 27:19 "As water reflects the face, so one's life reflects the heart."

My outward actions show me I have a lot of cleaning to do in my heart.